Ish Happens

I have thought about writing a blog for a long time, but I am not sure why. I am not a writer, ask any of my friends. In college, I copied previously written papers from my dear friend and still managed to barely pass the class (she, I am sure, received an 'A'). I found out soon after graduation from high school that my english teacher used one of my papers as an example on what not to do- so considerate that he left my name on the paper! Hippy jerk.  There is no reason for me to write- I have a friend who is a writer-a brilliant one at that- so why should I expose myself as a less than stellar writer in the same circle of friends?

Because I am self-ish. Not selfish, self-ish. Notice the hyphen. Similar to the fact that I am fat-ish, poor-ish, and pretty-ish. I am not completely any of these things, but I am not completly not one of these things, either.

See what I mean? Read that last sentence and then tell me I am a writer. What the hell?

Self-ish. I am a mom of 2 young boys so it really doesn't work out that I can be selfish most of the time and this is how I became self-ish and fat-ish. Because I don't have time to induldge myself to the fullest extent that I feel I deserve (which is an exorbitant amount, I am sure), when I do have time, I eat. Yum!Yum!Yum! I got a meal to myself that didn't involve whining about the weird looking food on the plate or food being throw on the floor in protest (or joy, it is hard to tell with my 2 year old). I can eat junk food without feeling guilty about feeding my kids food that is fueling them with fat, salt, and weird random animal parts. Being self-ish and fat-ish has led to us being poor-ish. Food costs money and good food can be expensive, so I get cheap-ish food. Not top of the line quality, but not scraping the barrel, either. Lots of  Cheap-ish meals adds up to poor-ish. And fat-ish. Fat-ish leads to pretty-ish.

To recap: Self-ish, fat-ish, poor-ish mom needs therapy to improve the mess she has gotten herself into. Therapy costs too much so here I am.

So what is my point? Not sure. I guess I am just full of -ish.